After the initial shock of walking the Relay Survivor lap...it all went well from there! I was lost in the beginning, because I was by myself. But after the first 2 laps...it was all good.
Leslie and I had a awesome weekend walking side by side and staying up all night together. We are definitely going to make Redding Relay a part of our Relay adventure.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Whirlwind of deep emotions....
This weekend in Redding CA is the American Cancer Society, Relay for Life. It is a time to honor those who are Celebrating another birthday, taking a moment of remembrance of those who have lost their gentle lives to cancer, and fighting back with those who are battling this awful disease.
I had cancer just two short months ago. Cancer!! The word no one wants to hear in their lifetime. I am so heartbroken right now. I am in lost words of emotion right now!! Walking a Relay in support of those is such an invirgorating feeling. Being a 1st time Survivor to cancer, it is such a different feeling now. There will be so many survivors walking the Survivor Lap. I will be walking with so many survivors, but I will be walking it alone!? So many thoughts are going through my mind. I wish my brother was along side me as my dad too. But I know the track is bigger, and it is too much for my daddy. I know I have to be strong for this event, and I will certainly try to be just that....I know John will be with me looking down on me from Heaven. And I know I have my dad's support. My little sisters and mother will be there for me as well. It is just a different side of the fence now.
So emotional for me and this weekend will be unforgettable for sure....
I had cancer just two short months ago. Cancer!! The word no one wants to hear in their lifetime. I am so heartbroken right now. I am in lost words of emotion right now!! Walking a Relay in support of those is such an invirgorating feeling. Being a 1st time Survivor to cancer, it is such a different feeling now. There will be so many survivors walking the Survivor Lap. I will be walking with so many survivors, but I will be walking it alone!? So many thoughts are going through my mind. I wish my brother was along side me as my dad too. But I know the track is bigger, and it is too much for my daddy. I know I have to be strong for this event, and I will certainly try to be just that....I know John will be with me looking down on me from Heaven. And I know I have my dad's support. My little sisters and mother will be there for me as well. It is just a different side of the fence now.
So emotional for me and this weekend will be unforgettable for sure....
Friday, May 7, 2010
To my brother, forever in my heart!
Today is the day you left to go to a more peaceful place, called Heaven. We talked about you today and there was a moment or two of tears. But we think of the happiness you gave us while you were here.
Every day I think of you and thrive for those conversations we use to share in person. I thrive for your advice, or your silliness, or your intellectual conversation. Man, I miss you so so much brother. More and more each day.
The greatest thing has happened to Scott!! He has a son and we are going to reconnect with him on the 16th of May. A day after he turns 18...what a great time in his life to meet his son as an adult. We have waited for this day for years. The communication between Scott and Cody has been positive. I pray for a relationship for many years to come.
I am doing ok for the most part after my surgery. Healing one day at a time. The cancer has been removed, though I have many months of follow-ups. I do have to have some check ups from an oncologist here soon I hope. Just patiently waiting for the phone call from them. I am staying on top of things concerning this cancer crap. I won't let your down.
Plus, this year.... I am going to be walking 2 relays. One in Redding, Leslie has a team. And will be walking the survivor lap....of which I will carry you with me...as well as dad. And, of course Trinity....I am excited for this...would love to walk more relays from other counties also. In memory of you and in honor of pops!!
I love you so much brother and 'Wish you were here'
Every day I think of you and thrive for those conversations we use to share in person. I thrive for your advice, or your silliness, or your intellectual conversation. Man, I miss you so so much brother. More and more each day.
The greatest thing has happened to Scott!! He has a son and we are going to reconnect with him on the 16th of May. A day after he turns 18...what a great time in his life to meet his son as an adult. We have waited for this day for years. The communication between Scott and Cody has been positive. I pray for a relationship for many years to come.
I am doing ok for the most part after my surgery. Healing one day at a time. The cancer has been removed, though I have many months of follow-ups. I do have to have some check ups from an oncologist here soon I hope. Just patiently waiting for the phone call from them. I am staying on top of things concerning this cancer crap. I won't let your down.
Plus, this year.... I am going to be walking 2 relays. One in Redding, Leslie has a team. And will be walking the survivor lap....of which I will carry you with me...as well as dad. And, of course Trinity....I am excited for this...would love to walk more relays from other counties also. In memory of you and in honor of pops!!
I love you so much brother and 'Wish you were here'
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Just about there...
Yesterday and today were quite busy. My little brother came up from Redding to help with the big things, which was awesome. He let us borrow his trailer to do more of the big stuff today. I did my weeks laundry...so we were able to get the washer and dryer moved today. We are at the tail end of our move and then the clean up!! Guessing one dump run will do us and then off to Redding to give Thomas his trailer back.
Super bowl is this coming weekend, will have the new furniture in place and have a few good friends over...make some fresh jalopeno' poppers yummmmmy!!! To die for lol
GO COLTS!!!!!!!!!!!!
Super bowl is this coming weekend, will have the new furniture in place and have a few good friends over...make some fresh jalopeno' poppers yummmmmy!!! To die for lol
GO COLTS!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, January 28, 2010
The big move to our new residence...
Scott has been doing such a awesome job with moving stuff from the garage to the new one. And painting has finally come to an end for the most part. I am super tired and will post later this weekend. Busy weekend for sure! Moving into our new home
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Trinity County Relay for Life 2010...
2010 has brought us joy, happiness, sadness, and strength! Joy of moving to a new home, happiness of accomplishing the much needed issues in our life, the sadness of finding out there is cancer in our life, and the strength of a family beyond anything!
As I was reading more about my cancer type, I decided to register online with my team. This time as a 'survivor'.... wow, what a trip, honestly. But I am on board, full speed ahead and ready to conquer this crap once and for all. Gives me more power and strength to go out and raise money for cancer awareness, services, treatments, transportation and what not.
GO JPACT... We are in for the long haul...we can reach our goal and beyond!!!
As I was reading more about my cancer type, I decided to register online with my team. This time as a 'survivor'.... wow, what a trip, honestly. But I am on board, full speed ahead and ready to conquer this crap once and for all. Gives me more power and strength to go out and raise money for cancer awareness, services, treatments, transportation and what not.
GO JPACT... We are in for the long haul...we can reach our goal and beyond!!!
Monday, January 25, 2010
Sister Love....
My little sister opened this new thing called blogging...of course I had to start my own.
Well here we go! I am the eldest daughter of 6 kids. I love my siblings with my whole heart. Each one has their definite personality. Got to love 'em :)
John passed away on May 7,2007 from a rare bladder cancer. He was diagnosed in Oct. 2006. I got married March 2006 and wanted to take that trip to Washington for my husband and brother to meet. After we found out he had cancer I kept in touch with him more often and planned our trip to Washington in March 2007. It was a very nice visit and even took John to one of his appointments. I sat there thinking 'why did he have to get cancer? He has already been through enough in his life' It was a question that ran through my mind so often. I cried for hours on end. I was missing my brother so much and wanted to stay with him. We stayed a week with him and his love. And it was so cool, because he asked me to bring my pup with me.
Anyways, the next couple of months were hard. We got the call to get up to Washington in May of 07. My heart still cries out for my brother. I miss him so much! His words to me that night, 'are you going to be okay?' I looked at him and told him I will do my best. I love him so much...and seeing him fading away was the most devastating I had to witness. He was once a strong man with strong integrity and values. He let nothing get in his way, even though he was a paraplegic. He died way too young and had so much to live for....
I promised him I would get check ups and I have done just that. Although, on January 15th, 2010 I was diagnosed with early stage 1 uterine-endometrial cancer. Which it is a operable and curable cancer. Once the initial shock wore off, I was able to sit down with my ob/gyn along with my husband and father. She gave me the details and explained why she is sending me to a specialist in Roseville. My consultation and exam is set for Feb. 19th 2010, surgery soon to follow.
I sit and think about how much we are involved with American cancer society, Relay for Life. After 3 years of walking to help find a cure cancer, because I lost my brother to cancer. I am going to be walking as a survivor, along side my father who is also a cancer survivor. I beg you to get that check every year.
Well here we go! I am the eldest daughter of 6 kids. I love my siblings with my whole heart. Each one has their definite personality. Got to love 'em :)
John passed away on May 7,2007 from a rare bladder cancer. He was diagnosed in Oct. 2006. I got married March 2006 and wanted to take that trip to Washington for my husband and brother to meet. After we found out he had cancer I kept in touch with him more often and planned our trip to Washington in March 2007. It was a very nice visit and even took John to one of his appointments. I sat there thinking 'why did he have to get cancer? He has already been through enough in his life' It was a question that ran through my mind so often. I cried for hours on end. I was missing my brother so much and wanted to stay with him. We stayed a week with him and his love. And it was so cool, because he asked me to bring my pup with me.
Anyways, the next couple of months were hard. We got the call to get up to Washington in May of 07. My heart still cries out for my brother. I miss him so much! His words to me that night, 'are you going to be okay?' I looked at him and told him I will do my best. I love him so much...and seeing him fading away was the most devastating I had to witness. He was once a strong man with strong integrity and values. He let nothing get in his way, even though he was a paraplegic. He died way too young and had so much to live for....
I promised him I would get check ups and I have done just that. Although, on January 15th, 2010 I was diagnosed with early stage 1 uterine-endometrial cancer. Which it is a operable and curable cancer. Once the initial shock wore off, I was able to sit down with my ob/gyn along with my husband and father. She gave me the details and explained why she is sending me to a specialist in Roseville. My consultation and exam is set for Feb. 19th 2010, surgery soon to follow.
I sit and think about how much we are involved with American cancer society, Relay for Life. After 3 years of walking to help find a cure cancer, because I lost my brother to cancer. I am going to be walking as a survivor, along side my father who is also a cancer survivor. I beg you to get that check every year.
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